11:04 Starting to think my medication isn’t working, why am I feeling suicidal nearly everyday ?
11:03 Getting the day started. Going out with wife and kids then it’s anniversary date night!
10:08 I had a dream I killed myself in a mental hospital. I self presented, snuck a blade in and once left alone began cutting myself up. All over my body, my face and finally my throat. I wrote a final message on the wall in my blood and made a goodbye video on my phone.