26th Nov 17′

20:35 I’ve pulled alot of my beard hair out and eaten it…now I look like a patchy mongrel. I guess I must be anxious about something but at this point in time I have no idea what it is. I’m just going to play assassin’s creed, chill out, stop eating hair then go to bed. 

19:37 YES! Twitter worked, each new diary entry is automatically shot into a tweet. That’s snazzy.

18:07 Alone at home now, I feel OK. I have to miss my RO DBT course this week and I’m not seeing my therapist so it’s the first time in ages that I’ll be without support for a couple of weeks – fills me with worry that but I’ll be alright. I have loads of things on at the mo that should keep me occupied – I often find that keeping myself occupied can stave off bad moods.

15:55 trying to leave that stress behind so I’m having a bath. Mindful breathing exercises too just to bring that arousal level down. Still chatting to my mate which is helping. I think I’m going to do a mindfulness section on this site. Just some techniques and things because regardless of your state of health mindfulness is a good thing to practice! It’s also the backbone of DBT.

13:19 started to get stressed and angry. Wife and son are irritating me and my head is throbbing with stress. Neither of them ever listen to me so what’s the fucking point. Now the wife has a face on her, she always makes it about her.

08:29 Son woke me up nice and early but he’s cute as hell so I’ll let it slide. Feel good this morning (except my knackered foot). Just watching the smurf movie! My friend (I think only friend seen as my illness seems to have disillusioned any other friends I had over the years) messaged me this morning just to catch up and see how I was. That’s exactly the kind of interaction I need, it’s not a massive support network but it’s something and without it I’d be completely alone. If you do one thing today – just ask someone how they are or spark up a conversation with someone you haven’t spoke to in a while. You never know they might just be waiting for a friend.

 

Author: mentalhealthdiary.com

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