20:38 Today was my medication review. It went quite well actually and I felt comfortable. I had terrible anxiety leading up to the meeting that knocked me sick. I was sweating and my whole body felt restless. Also pulled more eyebrow hairs out! All of that seemed to swiftly go away once I was going into the dr’s room. He was a nice gent and not one bit condescending (something I loathe & unfortunately see in alot of dr’s).
He asked me the usual textbook questions but delivered them in an open, relaxed way:
- How was I doing at the moment
- What medication am I currently on
- Is my current medication working
- When high/low describe feelings or events that have happened
And a few more but you get the idea. The more we rattled through the questions we begun discussing the similarities of my symptoms with Bipolar Disorder – this is something I have thought alot about as my sister is diagnosed Bipolar and we’re pretty much identical (symptom’s, mannerisms, personality etc.). In absolute honesty, I think I have Bipolar disorder but I understand it’s something that takes a long time to diagnose. It’s symptoms are found in many other disorders and the treatments vary from what I currently recieve.
Anyway, I got what I wanted to say across and I’m proud of myself I did that rather than shrink away or forget. It was decided that I should add Mirtazapine (30mg) into my meds. This is an anti depressant with histamine blocking properties (sedative effect). Started taking that today so hopefully over the next 3 – 4 weeks I will see a positive change 🙂
Hopefully the crushing lows won’t be as severe and I can actually start to live! I will be updating my mental health diary to track how this new medication is going.
For the record I am currently on:
- 400mg lamotrigine /day
- 30mg Mirtazapine /day