18th Dec 17′ – Mental Christmas Everyone

20:25 Are you in the Christmas spirit yet? My last 3 Christmases have been proper ruined through poor mental health. Just haven’t been able to enjoy at all and it’s gutting because I think I like Christmas. This year I am determined to have a good one, I’ll fight tooth n’ nail against my brain to enjoy it. 

My new meds seem to have settled down now, only have a slightly dry mouth in the morning and that’s about it πŸ™‚ oh that and I’ve completely gone off sex…Which is dead weird because before the tablets I’d go through phases of feeling like the energiser rabbit πŸ˜‚ too much info perhaps butt fuck it, it’s my blog. 

I’m really busy at work at the moment and don’t get much time to sit and reflect, I think that’s a good thing because it’s keeping my mind occupied. But I’m having little flutters of ‘enlightenment’ where everything is clear and I know exactly what to do. Everything is in place and if it isn’t I know exactly how to fix it…shame they’re just flutters and not sustained periods of time eh! 

Anyway, I’m going in the bath. I’ve had a bottle of red and I feel guilty because I was supposed to save that bottle for Christmas. Going to watch some feel good videos and hope nothing tries to sabotage my good mood!



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6 thoughts on “18th Dec 17′ – Mental Christmas Everyone”

  1. Not a holiday person myself, but good excuse for me to take a week off and hide since work will slow down. I have no feelings for holidays, which is sad because most people seem to enjoy them. I love when I get that “feeling of clearness” from the meds. Enjoy it, and I hope it keeps improving your quality of life, hopefully side effects go away soon also.

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    1. Do you think you have no feelings for holidays because of mental health reasons or are you just not arsed about the holiday’s?

      It does feel a bit false for me as I’m forcing myself to ‘enjoy’ it πŸ˜‚.

      Thanks I’ll try, I always use these moments to sort my life out abit and get in things in order before they tip upside down again! Yeah I think the side effects have pretty much died down πŸ™‚


      1. Family thing. My parents did holidays until we were old enough to understand they didn’t really care about them, and were doing it just so we would not feel left out from the kids at school. So from there I started being skeptical about them, to the point of today where I just don’t celebrate any. May use birthday as an excuse to eat out, the end. Maybe it would have evolved differently if my brain was less prone to depression and anxiety. To be honest, the whole rituals would probably drive me nuts with all the planning and decorating and spending.

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