7th Jan 18′ – Muddy Puddles (Daily Entry)

19:57

Mood – Apathetic now, tree hugging earlier.

This morning was good so I’ll get the bad shit out below and finish on a high, hopefully.

I’ve lost interest in EVERYTHING. Don’t think that I am being dramatic, when I say everything I mean:

  • friend/family
  • showering
  • gaming
  • listening to music
  • thinking
  • moving
  • this blog (I’m properly forcing myself here)

I just don’t want to do anything because everything has lost it’s point. I am doing two things though – eating & drinking. Really badly. Loads of shit unhealthy food washed down with alcohol. Along with eating and drinking I can probably stretch to dishing out these….

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Over the last 48 hours I’ve been pulling out so much hair and eating it, cos I’m odd like that. My skin is sore now though and parts of me just throb.

There. That’s where I am at right now folks. Earlier in the day though I was sound.

I walked through a muddy puddle today. It was proper deep and pretty much wrecked my trainers. My feet were swimming in shitty brown water. But it made me smile….Then I touched a tree. Not just touched, I actually hugged a tree. I don’t think anyone noticed me but yeah, I did it. There was reasoning behind me doing it though as I have recently been reading up on ‘grounding’ or ‘earthing’. It’s very simple if you haven’t heard of it, you basically get bare skin to earth. Walking barefoot for example, or as I do…Hug a tree. The theory behind it is all to do with electricity, I won’t try to explain it. If you would like to know more here’s a good site.

I think I’ll practice that a bit more and write about it once I figure out if it’s bullshit or not 🙂

 

 

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6 thoughts on “7th Jan 18′ – Muddy Puddles (Daily Entry)”

  1. Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time. Some days it happens to me too, where it takes all my energy and I have to force myself to eat or shower. It is not that I am not hungry or don’t want to be clean. I will be starving and know well I am due for a good shower, just no motivation to make the food or get in the shower.
    Hope you feel better soon!

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