20th Feb 18′ – Crashing Back Down To Earth

20:27

Mood … fuckit

 

Prior to today was my longest stretch of feeling ‘normal’ in years. I’ve loved it and felt like I really got my life on track. Plans were made and everything was hunky dory.

Was.

From out of nowhere my mood has crumbled and I wish I was dead. It’s fucking mental how you can be on top of the world then just not?! So from everything looking fantastic my mind is now doing this;

  • I hate my family
  • I hate myself
  • I want to punish myself
  • Why bother with anything there’s no point
  • nothing is worth anything
  • I hate everyone
  • I hate life
  • I’m going to hurt myself
  • fuck it
  • now im drinking
  • now im gorging on food
  • now im not giving a fuck because whats the point
  • fuck this blog

 

Here is a song
It reminds me of when we were young
Looking back at all the things we’ve done
You gotta keep on, keepin’ on
Out to sea, it’s the only place I honestly
Can’t get myself some piece of mind
You know it’s getting hard to fly
If I’m to fall
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go,
In my heart you grow
And that’s where you belong
If I’m to fall
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go,
In my heart you’ll grow
And that’s where you belong
If I’m to fall
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go
In my heart you’ll grow
And that’s where you belong
Guess I’m outta time
I’m outta time
I’m outta time
I’m outta time
I’m outta time

Author: mentalhealthdiary.com

Just a stranger writing about their life as a mental illness sufferer. I hope you can relate to the content on my site :)

8 thoughts on “20th Feb 18′ – Crashing Back Down To Earth”

  1. This will be temporary too. May feel like it lasts longer than the “high end” but it won’t last forever. No mood does. Hang in there, text me if you need to chat.

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