Feeling – weird
So I’ve procrastinated most of the day chasing wikirabbits. I just can’t concentrate on anything…and I don’t really give a fuck about much today. I’m trying to lift my spirits by binge eating but I know I’ll feel worse after.
Whilst reading through Wikipedia I started looking into suicide articles, suicide method’s etc. All very interesting but probably not the best material for me to be reading.
I told my OH that I think I’m getting ‘ill’ again and they recommended I go back to my local mental health team. I don’t feel ill enough for that sort of help.. but I know it can creep up on you quickly and before you know it you’re up shit creek with some booze and razor blades.
Anyway back to the wiki stuff, looked into assisted suicide and different companies that you can visit / pay to basically end your time on this planet. It’s interesting stuff, I won’t go into it in detail on here though.