I noticed I mimic a lot of what I see and obsess about it. For example if I watch a tv show or film I will mimic one of the characters and actually feel like it’s me. I then think that’s real and forget where I’ve come from.
Had to spend time alone in bedroom. Doing anything but lying down was a struggle.
High mood in morning felt fine until 2pm then started feeling depressed. really withdrawn and lacking in energy
Very low on morning until late afternoon when I felt like someone had injected energy straight into my brain. Head felt fuzzy and disconnected from my body. Singing top of my voice out car window then dancing for 3 hours at home.
Initially assement done at my local mental health support place. Made me feel really anxious and confused. Thoughts jumbled, couldn’t concetrate or speak properly. Twitchy.
Broke down, crying, couldn’t cope and convinced I would be soon dead. Nothing else mattered except stopping the pain and torment.