20:27
Mood …Â
Prior to today was my longest stretch of feeling ‘normal’ in years. I’ve loved it and felt like I really got my life on track. Plans were made and everything was hunky dory.
Was.
From out of nowhere my mood has crumbled and I wish I was dead. It’s fucking mental how you can be on top of the world then just not?! So from everything looking fantastic my mind is now doing this;
- I hate my family
- I hate myself
- I want to punish myself
- Why bother with anything there’s no point
- nothing is worth anything
- I hate everyone
- I hate life
- I’m going to hurt myself
- fuck it
- now im drinking
- now im gorging on food
- now im not giving a fuck because whats the point
- fuck this blog
It reminds me of when we were young
Looking back at all the things we’ve done
You gotta keep on, keepin’ on
Can’t get myself some piece of mind
You know it’s getting hard to fly
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go,
In my heart you grow
And that’s where you belong
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go,
In my heart you’ll grow
And that’s where you belong
Would you be there to applaud?
Or would you hide behind them all?
‘Cause if I have to go
In my heart you’ll grow
And that’s where you belong
I’m outta time
I’m outta time
I’m outta time
I’m outta time